language | 12:39 AM
balancing a pen on a piece of paper, or just positioning your fingers over a keyboard to record your thoughts in words is slightly nerve wrecking.My thoughts define me, they shape me on the inside, moulding my heart into a unique pattern and eventually this pattern resurfaces for people around me to see. But to write in a public journal, or a open blog is like a highway for these internal wonderings to shoot straight out through my skin and display to everyone the morals that i guide myself along. It is not slightly nerve wrecking, it is very unsettling.
Even so, I recognise an insecurity when I see one, and while i am still young, versatile, and strong hearted I visualize myself as a transformer, twisting the insecurities that plague teenage restless nights into personal momentums. I would like to write, or express clearly onto paper, while emptying myself of anxiety when they are worthless to be kept within. If I could use words that beat the same rhythem of my anxious heart, hopefull i will feel just a little bit better. language is not meant for communcation within souls, but within a soul maybe the mind and the heart will begin to understand each other a little better.
the photo dumps | i don't trust my hard-drive
- Hong Kong: All Blacks vs. Wallabies
- Segamat: railway with the folks.
- Season Finale: One more chapter to go
- Nicolo: a Kilogram
- Buildings: With Papa
- 10th June: Excursion & BBQ
- Ranging: the Environment
- Absidee: 565656
- XVXVXV: forthewin
- Formal: for fifteen minutes
- Cityy Squaree Mall: for Tsang
- Ankorrr What?!?!: with folks! (:
- Armed with a magnifying glass: Esplanade with Bobs Koh
- ABC: with MMA
- Mommy travels the world: WITHOUT US ):
- cutter sailors miss OBS: kboxing
- 30/03/2010: my lovely surprise
- Commuting: clear blue skies!!
- Sundays: chocolate waffles
- BCA Acad, ZEB: so not informative photos
- Hairloom&Caramel, MadJacks: seishun
- Changi Water Reclamation Plant: for WRP
- Bedok NEWater Visitor Centre: for WRP
- Kismis Park: for the sports camp2010 GLs
- Changi Airport: sending off the vietnam kids
- Classroomszs: normal polytechnic school days.
- Classroomszs: site visits & practicals
- Media Botanical: Gang Garden.
- Swensens, Vivo: failed food porn.
- my room: after spring cleaning.
- CNY'2010: everything related.
- Manado, Indonesia: family holiday with the dolphins.
- Su's family potrait: modeling in bukittimah.
- lecture breaks: you wished you were here.
- NPMC projectz: traintracks & mainroads.
- Nokia95: with a laptop.
- ERZ picnic: for fun.
- Osimness: fun with massage chairs.
- LSR sitevisit: science centre yo.
- ProjectTap: the camp.
- Su's treasure hunt: the photog&videog station.
- Gardening: a family effort.
- Gardening: pop's sculpture
- Kid-pack: Kilo vs Milo
- SHWM: no technology
- NPMC practical: class of traffic noise monitors
- NPMC changiairport: double glazed glass?
- YEP08: zaokeng, xiamen
- YEP08: zaokeng, xiamen
About Joy
i eat SOIL
& i spell my name as SHOY
& i look good in ALUMINIUM FOIL.
i treat lovers as my TOYS
& i flirt with girls* and BOYS
& my next target's ---
cause i am JOY
copyright KAIQI&ANAN(:
