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30DLC - Your Best Friend | 9:16 AM

The 30 Day Letter Challenge
Write to - Your Best Friend

Dear SGH.

In my phone you are listed as steph stomp. In my email you're listed as wednesday_is_my_name. Your birthday is either on the the 26th of Aug or September. Whichever month is correct, An An's birthday is on the 26th of the other month. So i get it right most of the time.

Lets pretend you didn't go to Australia. I would still text you daily about school. You'll still text me daily about school. We'll keep up with Japanese Entertainment so that we have so much more to talk about. I know it sounds a bit desperate, but I know i just want more excuses to talk to you, and get your attention. I feel safe with you. You never condemn me for my opinions, you always accept them, or at least gently negotiate yourself around them. The most amazing part is that most of the time, we really agree with one another. But then again, this paragraph has too much "I" in it.

Lets pretend you didn't go to Australia. We'll still meet weekly, spontaneously usually in town to do the same things at the same places. I'll always get annoyed at your indeciveness, and i always suspect that you're always annoyed when i beat you in "Who Arrives Later". I know you always get annoyed when i get lazy to text anyone (including you) after the clock strikes 6pm. I know you really would like me to love YUI as much as you do, and spend copious amounts of time on msn trying to do so. I know you always get confused with the jimble jamble of thoughts that fall out of my mind and into conversations with you. Like 50m of string wound up in a ball, you always start unraveling me, you never left me as i was.

Now that you did go Australia, my life is flooded with school. you were the dam that held back the waters of meager matters and taught me the importance of myself before pleasing the world. Now that every message in my phone inbox has association initials behind the name of the senders, i search through the list looking for your name that would pull me back from the clouds and onto dry land again.

Now that you did go Australia, i know you may change into a completely different person. I don't expect you to return after three years and still have patience for me. I know it might take copious amounts of time to get used to me again. I know that being my best friend isn't your job, wasn't, and will never be. I'm okay with all this. I can't say i'm happy to see you change, I will still be really proud of you to have been able to return after completion of your three years. But i still crazy miss you. For being someone i could completely confide in and feel zero pressure to change. I am looking, honestly, for a replacement or someone like you. But honestly, i am not hopeful. I will never do justice to any suitable candidate, I can't compare anyone to you. Steph Standards, i could call them. I can give some people hearts on their facebook walls, but they don't even qualify for Steph Standards.

I am so selfish. But i hope this letter is sufficient for you to know how much you meant to me. And that you were a gem to someone, and that you should be one for yourself as well. Above all, my greatest wish is to be able to hear from you once in a while 50 years down the road. A christmas card annually would also be lovely. Your grandchildren don't have to know my name, but if you still remember my face i would be forever happy.

Cheers!
Joy.

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    • About Joy

    i eat SOIL
    & i spell my name as SHOY
    & i look good in ALUMINIUM FOIL.
    i treat lovers as my TOYS
    & i flirt with girls* and BOYS
    & my next target's ---
    cause i am JOY

    copyright KAIQI&ANAN(:



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